Depression, when there is no light at the end of the tunnel.

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Depression is feeling alone, when you are surrounded by people.

Depression is feeling lost when you know your way.

Depression is feeling exhausted, when you have 10 hours sleep.

Depression is feeling empty, when you are full.

Depression is feeling numbness when you are overwhelmed with feelings.

Depression is death when you are very much alive.

There are so many ways to describe depression, some people can eloquently describe what their experience of depression feels like and some people can’t really put their finger on what it feels like.

That is the beast, the big black dog. Depression.

So, what is it? what is Depression?

Depression, or Major Depressive Disorders as it’s categorised in the Diagnostic Statistical manual (DSM 5) is the following –

For a person to be diagnosed with clinical depression, they would have to have
five or more of the following symptoms, including at least one of the first two,
for at least two weeks:

  • an unusually sad or irritable mood that does not go away;
  • loss of enjoyment and interest in activities that used to be enjoyable;
  • lack of energy and tiredness;
  • feeling worthless or feeling guilty when they are not really at fault;
  • thinking about death a lot or wishing they were dead;
  • difficulty concentrating or making decisions;
  • moving more slowly or, sometimes, becoming agitated and unable to settle;
  • having sleeping difficulties or, sometimes, sleeping too much;
  • loss of interest in food or, sometimes, eating too much. Changes in eating habits may lead to either loss of weight or putting on weight.

As you can see depression is not a made-up disease.

It’s not just being a little sad about something, it’s not just being upset because your football team lost a game, or because your favourite reality star was kicked off whatever show they were on.

It is much, much more than that.

And I think that has been forgotten over the years. The language that we have used and the stigma we associate with being depressed has really taken away from the real and actual experience that depression is. We have become too flippant with our language. How often do we hear people say, “I’m so depressed…I don’t have enough money for….” or “I’m so depressed I couldn’t go out on the weekend,” or some other trivial, benign statement.

We have created many conversations about depression in recent years and there are plenty of campaigns about depression and anxiety, reminding us to look out for our mates, and asking people if they are okay, but are we really accepting? are we as accepting of someone experiencing depression as we are of someone with cancer?

No one chooses to have depression, just as no one would ever choose to have cancer.

Yet if someone is off work due to a ‘physical illness’ we send flowers and cards and care packages. Do we do the same if someone is off work as they are experiencing depression? Do we ring up to just check in, or drop by with some lasagne or a casserole?

Why not? Do we assume that someone with cancer suffers more that someone with depression? But how can that ever be measured? We can’t measure someone’s suffering and should we really?

How do we change the attitude of people when it comes to mental illness? How do we advocate for someone with mental illness? I really don’t know the answer to these questions, other than to create conversation, to talk about mental illness, to talk about depression, to be careful with the language that we use and understand the impact that our language and attitude can have on others.

We need to make it okay for someone to have depression because the depression is not going to go away if the person asks for help. It’s not going to go away if the person just cheers up, puts a smile on their face and get up to face the day.

Can you imagine saying these things to someone experiencing cancer, or heart disease, or some other physical illness? No because it would be an absurd thing to say. “Your cancer will get better if you just have a shower, get dressed and go outside….”

These are things that people with depression have heard. These are legitimate ‘helpful’ suggestions that people make.

And chances are the person has tried to get up and shower and put a smile on their face and it has not worked. All it has done has made them feel worse, it’s pushed them further down the black hole they find themselves in. And there is no light at the end of that tunnel. It is bleak and endless and full of ghouls.

My own personal experiences with depression were similar. I saw no light at the end of the tunnel, just pain and blackness that was just so endless, no release or escape. It felt like each day, each hour and each minute more heavy relentless bricks were being piled on and I was sinking further and further into a hole that I could see no way out of.

I have never felt like I had reasons to be depressed.

In fact the better I was doing in my life, the worse the depression got. It was like my mind was just preparing itself for it all to crash down, and when it did it was a self fulfilling prophesy. It was like  an “I told you so.” You don’t deserve happiness, or things to be going right. You deserve nothing.

And I would sink into the depths of nothingness for days, weeks, months until I was able to pull myself out, or medications would start working, or things would just start feeling easier. It stopped hurting to breathe and I would then get up, push on and brace for the next hurdle.

Today I know much more about depression, and am often able to ‘catch’ myself before I begin to fall. I have learnt to identify early warning signs, I take regular medication that makes me feel what I like to describe as ‘the real me’ and I understand the psychology behind mental illness.

And by writing this blog and talking about mental illness, sharing my story I want people to understand that depression is real, just as real as a physical illness we can see.

I am in no way saying that we can compare physical illness and mental illness. I have long advocated that this activity is just absurd because what is the point. What I will say is that everyone who experiences sickness or illness, or pain deserves to be treated as a human being. Their suffering needs to be acknowledged, tolerated and supported.

If you would like some more information about depression, please check out the following resources –

Mental Health First Aid – Depression guidelines

Beyond Blue – The facts about depression

Sane Australia – Guidelines and facts about depression

So before you scoff next time you hear someone is off work for mental health reasons, or when someone tells you they have depression. Think about what you say and how you will respond.

If you  know someone who is suicidal, or if you’re feeling suicidal yourself please reach out, use these resources – and if you don’t get the answers you need, try someone else.

Suicide callback service – call 1300 659 467 – available 24/7

Lifeline – call 13 11 14 – available 24/7

Kids Helpline – call 1800 55 1800 – available 24/7

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Men’s mental health – paving the way for a healthy future.

Lets talk about mental illnessThis week the 11th – 17th June, marks 2018’s Men’s Health Week.

The theme for this year is Men and families: Making healthy connections.

Focusing on the healthy connections and family relationships, including how men and families focus on their health and the health of their family.

This infographic  looks at some of the major issues facing men today – physical health issues, alcohol consumption, exercise, sleep and nutrition.

It also outlines the top 3 causes of death for males, which are –

  1. heart disease,
  2. suicide
  3. motor vehicle accidents

Today I would like to talk about the mental health of males.

Because let’s be honest, it’s easy to talk about heart disease and motor vehicle accidents. We hear about it in the media, on the news, advertising campaigns, but it’s less easy to talk about mental illness.

Mental health is an issue for all. It does not discriminate, it can affect anyone and everyone.

It is vitally important to talk about because the more we talk about mental illness, the more we make it okay to talk about.

There are some amazing male mental health focused campaigns that have some really great information and resources –

Livin

Man up

SPUR

Man therapy

I’ve gotcha 4 life

Unfortunately, some men still seem to be hesitant, or uncomfortable talking about mental health or mental illness.

Why is that?

Time to Change.org asked the question of its followers and thousands of people replied – some of the responses included –

“Because a man is ‘strong and courageous’. Mental illness is something that is wrongly thought of as a weakness”

“Some men like to be looked upon as being strong and they think mental health is a weakness”

“Perhaps the thought of being portrayed as weak.”

“Being judged by other men. All about ego and stigma.”

Go check out some other insightful responses to the question they posed here.

Is the answer really that simple?

Men don’t want to be seen as weak?

If so then how do we make a change to something that may have manifested from childhood, when little boys are taught to supress any emotions.

The idea that little boys need to be tough, instead of being allowed to work through feelings and emotions really does impact a child’s capacity to learn about all ‘normal’ human emotions.

How often do we hear people say, “don’t cry, come on, boys don’t cry” or something similar – instead of “Its okay to cry, I understand that you are sad/angry/confused right now.”

So how do we make it okay for men to be able to talk to their peers about mental health, because we can’t change the past, we can’t change society’s view about what they thought of mental illness in the past.

What can we actively do to make it okay for our sons to talk about how they are feeling, to reach out when they are in crisis?

Talk to them about their feelings –

Simple, talk to them. Tell them about times you felt sad and how you managed it. Tell them it’s okay to be sad because it’s a normal human emotion. Make a discussion about feeling and emotions a regular and normal part of your communication with your family.

Check out Kids Matters for really simple things you can do to help encourage your children to express their emotions in healthy ways.

So what about adults, how do we make it okay, for men who have been raised with the belief that they should be seen as the providers, the leaders, not weak emotionally?

  • Just keep talking about it.
  • Challenge people you see who makes jokes about mental illness, or joke about peoples perceived weakness.
  • Talk to your mates about how you feel.
  • Reach out if you see something is not quite right with your friends.
  • Be open and honest about how you’re feeling.

It’s time to Challenge yourself. To step outside your comfort zone and stand up for your right as a male to have a healthy relationship with your feeling and emotions.

Pave the way for the future boys who are being taught its okay to be happy, sad and angry.

Discussing how you feel can save the life of someone who may not have the emotional capacity to say it themselves.

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